It's in God's hands now....

Understandably so, I am hesitant to share such a personal piece of information in a public blog, but I feel this might clear the air and stop people from asking when we will have more children.

After almost 2 years of trying for another baby Josh and I underwent several rounds of fertility testing to find out why it was taking so long to conceive. After several months we have found our answer. At first I developed several polyps on my uterus (possibly from scar tissue from my c-section) and had those surgically removed but come to find out with a mix of ovulation problems it looks to be that at this point we are unable to have kids on our own.

Josh and I are both mutually saddened by this news. I can't begin to describe the hurt and pain I have felt month after month of trying and no positive result, but we remain strong. In hindsight Joey is our miracle baby. I am unsure of my own infertility causes, but realize now that I am so blessed to have my baby Joey, even if he isn't a baby anymore. I never envisioned myself only having one child and realize now that without any sort of fertility help that we may only end up with one child of our own. Of course we can always do in-vitro or adopt but perhaps one child is what is only meant for us.

I have to be honest in saying that Josh is more optimistic then me. He believes that we will get pregnant in God's time, but I have trouble with waiting for what's to come. My biggest flaw is needing to have a plan for everything, but I am learning to accept that it is God's plan and not mine. Still I continue to pray for that miracle.

I feel extremely blessed to be a mother to Joey. He is my heart and my world and if he is my only child then I will continue to thank God everyday for his blessing. Josh has been such a supportive husband and father. I feel so thankful and so blessed to have such a wonderful family already. While part of me feels that I need to expand my family, I am so thankful for the loving family I already have.

Please just pray for us for God's will on our family, whatever that may be.

I am becoming quite the crafty lady

I made a diaper cake for Traci's Baby Shower a month or so back and it turned out pretty well for my first go around at making a cake.
My Mother-in-law's neighbor heard about my cake and ordered one right up for her grandson's baby shower.

I had a lot of fun making this one b/c the colors were really neat.
I had to improvise a little bit b/c I ran out of diapers, but all in all the design turned out well and Myrna loved it!



If you like what you see and are ever interested in giving a diaper cake as a baby shower gift let me know and I can whip one right up for you.

Chatty Cathy

Joey has become quite the chatty cathy lately.

The other day we literally had the same converation 50 times. I joke you not! It went something like this.

Saturday 11/14

Joey: "We go to Church?"
Mommy: "Yes Joey, tomorrow."
Joey: "We go bye bye, see Grandpa?"
Mommy: "Yes, after Church we will go to Grandma and Grandpa's."
Joey: "We see Grandpa Airplane?"
Mommy: "You sure can."
Joey: "I see tractor?" Makes tractor noise.
Mommy: "If you want to, I am sure Grandpa will show it to you."
Joey: "We see Bots?" (Spots is Grandma and Grandpa's dog).
Mommy: "Definitely, you can even give him treats."
Joey: "Where Jonah?"
Mommy: "He's at home."
Joey: "We see Jonah?"
Mommy: "On Wednesday, we will."
Joey: "JONAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!"
Joey: " We go to Church?"


Try having that conversation with a two year old numerous times.
It was seriously so cute though!

Halloween

Apparently I am still working on updating my blog but I think I need a do over and just go from here. Which means Halloween pictures!

Joey had quite the Halloween. The week began with him being terribly afraid of his costume (Mike Wazowski from Monster's Inc.) At first he wouldn't even let me put it on, but he warmed up to that but immediately would want the costume off. His friend Gabe came over on Friday to decorate cookies and show off Halloween costumes. Joey saw that Gabe had his costume on so he was more than willing to put his on.

Halloween day my mom came over in the morning so we could get our shopping on. I got Joey dressed into his costume and surprisingly enough wore it all day! He even took a nap in it. And he also received a free kids meal at Spaghetti Factory for wearing his costume. SCORE!

As soon as it was dark out we made our way outside to trick or treat. We made it down two streets before we had to turn back and get Joey a band aid for his bloody knuckles. He kept tripping over his costumes feet and took a couple of good spills. The kids was literally running house to house! Once we got in he put his candy bucket down and was playing with more interested in playing with pennies then eating candy so I took that as a sign that we didn't need to go back out and trick or treat more.

Josh handed out candy fully dressed in his Hagrid (Harry Potter) costume. The kids that came to the door where just in awe and a couple of them even stared and couldn't even move. It was really cool to see the kids excited and Josh having the time of his life.